AWKWARD

What an awkward afternoon. I took N to a park near our house and we got there and 90 percent of her class was there. A birthday party that she was not invited to. She could have cared less. I had to tell her not to go over to the table and get some cake! I was hurt though. Still am. I mean, as I mom of course I am going to wonder, ¨Why didn´t they invite my daughter?¨

I guess they are missing out.

I´m baaack.

Here I am. Strapping on the old bloggin´boots again. It´s been awhile. Like, two years? I suppose a lot has changed since the last time I have written. My dad mentioned something today about me writing again. And I have been meaning to. I really have. I have gotten away from the things that I really love doing. Shame on me. Here is me promising you, my readers to do better. I suppose that´s one of the reason I stopped because I didn´t feel like I really even had any readers. Oh well. Here´s to you internet strangers! Cheers!

So, ya. Antonio´s dad passed away in Dec of 2014. It was obviously beyond sad and we miss him STILL so much every day. Life is so different without him. Like, so different. I hate him not being here. Last week we just lost the family dog too and it was just another reminder of how things are just GONE. Poof. Just like that. I miss her too. She was almost 15. Changes Changes.

I was also in the middle of a nearly three year secondary infertility battle. We both got tested and were  ¨Fine¨ which made it even more frustrating because I wanted someone to tell me something was wrong. I mean, we had a kid before so what was the deal?   I had a procedure done where they clean out your fallopian tubes and started on clomid and got pregnant two months later (after nearly three years of trying). Our second daughter was born Aug 16, 2015 and she´s perfect. Super happy.

Having two kids is super hard. I thought my oldest daughter who was five when she was born would have adjusted better as well, but we are still going through some jealousy issues, but for the most part she is loving on her all the time. My new baby is a terrible sleeper so that makes life unbearable. Like, I want to die most days. So. Damn. Tired. I am not used to it because the first was a dream boat. Everyone says ¨Oh she will sleep when she gets older.¨ Still anxiously awaiting that day! She will be nine months very soon.

I am working part time and A is working too. Life is busy,  but I want to make time for things that I enjoy. (Like drinking heavily). I kid. I kid.

Ok internet friends. Don´t want to overwhelm you too much the first day back. Talk soon. muah.

Recap.

A´s dad has bone and stomach cancer. We found out when we got back this summer.

Needless to say we are all devastated. I don´t really like to talk about it that much because I just get 

too damn sad.  He has had radiation twice. We will see how it goes. Just taking it a day at a time.

I would also like everyone to stop asking me when we are having another kid, if I´m pregnant and if 

we are trying.  From the looks of things we will not be having more children. I just have to accept it 

and move on.  So ya, please stop asking me. Thanks!

It´s beginning to look a lot like Christmas..

Well, not really here in Sevilla since it´s still 60 degrees, but from Facebook pics I can tell that it´s already snowing and super cold in IN ...hooray!

N and I will be going Dec 22 to Jan 4. I could NOT be more excited if I tried.

N has never seen the snow and I want to show her EVERYTHING there is that she can possibly see.

Skating, tubing, sledding, you name it we are going to do it!

My worst fear is that she will be all ´I¨M COLD!¨ but I will drag her out in it anyways;)

HOORAY FOR HOLIDAYS

Parent teacher conference

So, today I had a meeting with Nora´s teacher. I like to go in three or so times a year to have a chat and just see how the little monkey is doing.

I left with a very full and satisfied heart.

She said ¨Nora is a gift.¨  And she just kept saying positive thing upon positive thing as my heart overflowed with glee.

She is a gift indeed.

Happy for that reminder today!

I´m still alive

It´s just that nothing cool has happened lately.

I am teaching four classes this year and working part time at Hola USA.

I´m also translating some books which is a super exciting new project and I cannot wait to show you all the final results. My name will be on four books.....yay!

Then I have to do house stuff and raise my daughter, oh, and go spinning. So ya, that is all of the time I have in one day and then some.

My cutie new nephew Henry Lee Fisel was born on October 11 so that is very exciting news! 2 Fisel boys to carry out the Fisel legacy.

Halloween is coming up and my boo is going as a Chameleon...because that is what she chose.

SCREW FROZEN!

Gosh I love my kid sometimes. Note that I said sometimes. ;)

oxox

One for the record books.

At 8:15 a.m. this morning I was laying on my bed and my mother in law was giving me an enema.

I bet you cannot say the same.

Let me just back up for a second.

As you know, we are having some fertility issues and this summer I was going to get an HSG done to see if my fallopian tubes are blocked or not and it cost five thousand dollars. Obviously, I did not get it done in the States.

I waited until today, in Spain and it cost 132 euros. Bit of a difference.

For this procedure I needed to have blood drawn beforehand, take an antibiotic AND have an enema a few hours before.

I´d never had an enema before. I am no longer an enema virgin.

SO, I have one friend who has done one before at home and she said it´s hard to do it yourself because you have to lie down on your side and then like squeeze all the liquid in from behind and A)it´s hard to squeeze alone and B)It´s hard to get ALL the liquid in before you want to poop.

The night before my MIL asked me if I want her to do it and I said ¨No, absolutely not.¨ Then, she had to come over and take N to school anyways, since I was going to do the enema and I was like ¨eh, what the heck.¨ So ya, today my MIL saw my butt hole and stuck something up it. And looked at it for awhile while she was squeezing liquid up there. Now THAT is love folks. Or just sheer creepiness.

The procedure was fine and it did not hurt at all, although I really do prefer female doctors when it comes to this sort of thing. Sorry guys, but you are just clueless. I ALWAYS have like 70 year old men and it´s not that I think they are bad doctors, I just think they CANNOT relate to what we women are going through because THEY DO NOT HAVE VAGINAS.

He was asking me if I was uncomfortable and if I was nervous. Umm, ¨yes and yes¨ Lets´see, my vagina is in the face of some RANDOM stranger that I have never met and you are RAMMING things into my insides. It does not feel great.

Any-who , the results were excellent and I am so happy and relieved.

Let the search continue.
ps. Two things that are bothering me right now:
1. Guys shaving and waxing their legs. It looks ridiculous.
2. They do not wear gloves here while taking blood. I probably have AIDS now.

Never Forget.